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May. 12th, 2013 11:03 pmI don't know what to do now. (Chemical Lobotomies.)
Festival girl, bear with a ribbon.
This + the rest of the memories from that week which are mostly just all of her friends turning into useless lumps and John begging with Val.
Except for her own experience, everything else comes the week after because clearly she was in no mental state to read the network.
Effects:
+ 1000 terrified of people tampering with my brain
+ 1000 guilt about making John upset
+ 1000 guilt that she's lost her reason to fight in Deco
+ 500 need to make up to john because of that
- 1000 desire to tell anyone about her world at home, she's going to pretend she's finejustfine.
Mostly this has just upped the coping mechanisms and John feelings intensify. She's going to try and find a reason to fight here in Deco because she feels like she owes it to him. One day.
Festival girl, bear with a ribbon.
This + the rest of the memories from that week which are mostly just all of her friends turning into useless lumps and John begging with Val.
Except for her own experience, everything else comes the week after because clearly she was in no mental state to read the network.
Effects:
+ 1000 terrified of people tampering with my brain
+ 1000 guilt about making John upset
+ 1000 guilt that she's lost her reason to fight in Deco
+ 500 need to make up to john because of that
- 1000 desire to tell anyone about her world at home, she's going to pretend she's finejustfine.
Mostly this has just upped the coping mechanisms and John feelings intensify. She's going to try and find a reason to fight here in Deco because she feels like she owes it to him. One day.
